6 years ago, I believe I started posting here. My mom died in 2022, from Parkinson. Before she died she said... "don't hold your life back, just to care for me"
After, Mom died, I matched and went off to do my residency.
Now my dad has prostate cancer and already has been hospitalized.I still have, like ...2 years to go on my residency.
I really don't know if he will last that long, or even if he is alive, how I will meet him. He already looks so much weaker over the phone.
Did I mention how much I hate cancer ?
It hasn't even been 5 years since my mother's passing... and here we are again, struggling to keep a parent alive.
I'm not ready.Like...how do you even prepare yourself for the void of BOTH parents being gone.
It's really like those moments they show in movies where, the elder character who is apparently lost in dementia... randomly says something wiser than all the other characters in the room.
When mom passed. We wept. And we clung to our father. Hoping that nothing would happen for at least several years. Then the big C diagnosis happened.
The idea that we could soon suddenly find ourselves with no parent to talk too? Man, that's just a different stage in life. No next generation to talk to. It's like a big hole in one's life.