I am 55 and he is 53; Husband of 4 yrs diagnosed w/ early onset Dementia 2 days before wedding day. Out of the blue 2 wks ago he said he feels like we’re not compatible. He wants to separate and clear his head. He says that at the end of the day he needs silence and to see what is left of him. He wants to buy an RV and be alone. He refuses to go back to the dr. He’s currently dealing with a lot of stress. His mother and aunt are both close to passing. This came out of nowhere. He is the caregiver for them because he won’t let anyone else help. This man is the love of my life. I knew what I was getting into when we married, but now he’s just throwing it all away. I want to be there for him and support him and take care of him but he just keeps pushing me away. He seems so cold and distant, he is emotionally empty. When I am emotional it angers him and he tells me to stop playing the victim and walks away. His kids have all talked to him and tried to talk him out of it but he is dead set on this plan. He appears to be lucid and normal to them but they are not with him every day. I’m worried about him and his safety and I don’t know what to do. We’re in the process of packing up our house to sell. He said that I deserve someone who can return my love and give me the things that he can’t. Please help!!
Yes stress effects Dementia. Your DH should not be the one caring for his Mom and Aunt. But fighting with him will get you nowhere. I feel one of the first things to go besides short term memory loss is the ability to reason. You can't reason with him. Evening is usually "sundowning" time. If he wants that time to himself, then give it to him. If he hasn't lost the ability to process he will.
There is no cure for this. You need to realize that he will get worse. There are stages. He will be unpredictable. Will need someone there 24/7. You will be the one he lashes out at.
Why are you selling the house? This is where he is familiar with things. Change is not a good thing. When you move, you may find some confusion there too.
You say the home is being sold. Is your husband mentally capable of doing that now? And of handling the care of two elders?
If your husband is currently this far from you mentally, then in all honesty a division of assets may turn out to be a GOOD thing, even if you remain his DPOA and Guardian for care in future.
You say that you yourself have health care limitations. What are they? What support system is there for each of you going forward?
My advice right now is to step back as much as you can for a few weeks and reassess where you are. The unwillingness to see a doctor is a very very very bad signal indeed.
Have you contacted the neurologist and told her/him what is going on with your husband? I think that might be a good first move; if you don't have a HIPAA release, the doc can't talk to YOU, but s/he can do a "check in" with your husband.
And yes, stress can make dementia symptoms worse. In fact, severe stress can cause dementia. EO dementia caused by one of the neurodegenerative diseases normally progresses much faster than you describe. So get him back into the drs office o see what you're dealing with. His PCP can do simple cognitive tests to detect dementia, but he/she is not trained to determine the cause. I hope your visit to the neurologist this week is fruitful and answers some of your questions. We'll be thinking of you. Let us know.
I would follow up with the seeing the neurologist as Barb suggested. Best wishes to you. Sending prayers and many hugs your way.
But I get a small vibe this man is wrapping his life up - I hope I am wrong.
Please seek medical help for him.
If that is what he's doing, then he's giving you the most loving and unselfish gift he can give while he still has his mind
my mom always stated she never wanted to burden her kids when she got older. She wanted us to live our lives...she wanted to move away to make it easier because we were way to close to her distance wise as well as emotionally.
Well that never happened & she had a hemorrhagic stroke after she was diagnosed w/ dementia. I moved her in with me & I’ll tell you, it’s the hardest work I’ve ever done. One has to be gifted with A LOT of patience.
Caregiving is exhausting with one person much less with 2?!
Mom has consumed my life...literally!
The husband of Newlywed55 has his hands full & probably could use some alone time. Dementia is a very selfish disease and it doesn’t matter who it hurts!
I think he is hurting and maybe angry some and does not no how to handle is emotions. Therefore, I think he wants to be alone.
I'm sure he does have a lot on his mind.
Most men handle their emotions by being alone.
However, you asked if very stressful situations can make dementia symptoms worse. Yes, they can.
In fact, studies have shown that people who live in stress when they are younger are more vulnerable to developing dementia later in life.
I suggest you go with your gut, support his decision, and maybe some day he will "have" to need you and want you. Hopefully, that time will be soon. Meantime, take care of yourself, your health, your finances, and don't feel guilty for it. You're doing your best. Maybe let him buy that RV and suggest going with him as a companion? Go have fun while you can. But it's so hard to do during this pandemic. Best to you.
Of course being diagnosed with dementia is a lot to think about too.
There isn't really anything you can do, but let him go and let him know that you are there for him if things don't work out or he changes his mind.
Is there a way you can keep the house and he can still buy an RV to let him try clearing his head?
Dones he plan to continue caring for his mom and Aunt?
Maybe he just needs to get away from everything.
It is very stressful to be a caregiver for someone.
He could just be burnt out.
He could also be having a mid life crisis.
If you love him, you'll have to let him go.
The tighter you hold on or the Guiltier you try to make him feel will just drive him away even more.
Let this be about him and not you, even tho I understand this is devastating for you but you have to be the strong one and set him free with your live and support and let him know you're there whenever he needs you, even if it's just to talk to.
Prayers
Yes stress can make dementia worse.
He is getting stress from different angles.
He is caregiver for his mom and his aunt. The fact that they are dying makes it more difficult. You do not mention what their conditions are but if either has lost mental capacity he can see what the future holds for him and you. That is frightening for him.
I found with my Husbands dementia that he no longer showed affection. No hugs. He would hold hands with me. He would give me a kiss good bye, kiss me when I returned a kiss good night but I do not think it really had a meaning to him. (some are the opposite and become highly sex driven)
If he is aware right now as to what he is doing, can comprehend his diagnosis this is frightening for him and he is probably pulling back to "save" you the difficult journey ahead.
You say you are packing up your house to sell. Do you have another? are you moving far? Moves can be difficult. He may also be worried that he will be lost in a new place. (lost both literally and figuratively)
Make a deal with him.
If he agrees to return to the doctor. Discuss with the doctor the possibility of Depression and if it is necessary take medication. Continue with medication for at least 6 months and if the doctor thinks it is safe he can go on his road trip. But someone has to go with him. You or one of the kids.
My guess is that after 6 months with an anti depressant and having to get the doctor's ok the road trip may not happen.
Contact the Alzheimer's Association and find out if there are any support groups that are meeting right now. And find out if there are any support groups meeting FOR people that have been diagnosed with dementia. It might be good for him to talk to others that have also been diagnosed. (I just checked my local AZ Association site and there are Early Support groups it is an 8 week session.) Attending one of the sessions might also be part of your "deal".
My heart goes out to both of you. I hope that you have also talked with an Elder Care Attorney to make sure everything is in order. You need to protect yourself. I do hope you have a good relationship with his kids!
Please make a "routine" appointment with his doctor. Make sure to go with and explain the problems you are experiencing in your lives right now. Either his doctor may prescribe some mood-stabilizing medication or he/she may set up a referral with a psychiatrist. His doctor can also check to make sure that there are not other problems as a source of his difficulty.
Llearning to manage your emotions when your around people with dimensia/althhimers will not only make it easier for you to engage him it will make your life a whole lot easier.
A few books to look at
Dr Amen: Power of the female brain, Magnificent mind at any age
Dr Amen also has great shows on PBS
Rev Robert Shueler tough times don't last tough people do (I spelled his name wrong)
Look into teachings on ZEN and meditation
Make sure your getting exersize and eating right
Also ask your Doctor
I ASSURE you this is something you can change. The good news is you havae FULL control of this
Her oldest son died unexpectedly and she totally split from reality immediately. He died in March and right away her husband could no longer take care of her in the home (and Lord knows he/we tried). Within a few months she could not remember how to walk or to follow any kind of direction from physical therapy. By Oct/Nov she said she knew my boyfriends face, he looked familiar, but had no idea he was her son. Even if you told her his name, she would smile and repeat the name, but you could tell she was no longer putting 2 and 2 together. She passed on Christmas Eve. We were very shocked at the immediate decline. Everyone could put an exact finger on the loss of son and how her mind totally left her when that happened.
Without crying or becoming too emotional (yes, it's hard), why not try a different approach. Tell him you have no where to go and suggest a roommate situation. He can help you and you can help him.
I know you're in the process of selling the home, but appeal to what may be left of 'financial' thinking for him - two homes are more expensive to maintain and you both need a place to live. You've only been married a short time - so what is the agreement (if any) about division of property? If you get half, you might toss that into the conversation about the incomes will go further if you are together than if each of you only takes half to find a new place to live. . .maybe a higher mortgage payment than either can afford.
Does he plan to buy the RV from sale of the home? Or does he have access to other monies that would pay for an RV? There's a good chance he could go to a dealer and make the purchase without anyone knowing about it.
You know, it may also be possible that there is just enough reasoning left in his mind that he just wants you to move on before his memory is really gone. Maybe he really doesn't want you to go through or see him when things go south. His brain may also be a blur of thoughts with his family issues and he really does need to have some quiet. (I know that as a caregiver myself, sometimes my own brain is going 100mph - I joke about getting a morphine machine so I can just push the button and get a sound sleep). Is it possible for him to get a room or a cabin at a park for a week just to quiet his brain - doesn't have to be that far from home. If his kids have quiet lives, maybe just a few days out of the house and stay with them. His world is being turned upside down and now yours. Bless you as you do your best to resolve.