I am a 33 year old woman. I was primary 24/7 caregiver to my grandfather for many years until his death. Now, I am caring for my grandmother. I spent 90 days with her on a cot in a rehab. Now, she is home. I do it all, the bills, house maintenance, her personal care including emptying commodes and wiping her. Shes is often mean, screams til I'm in a state of confusion, and her children all refuse to help because she left her house to my mom and I. My mother refused to help me even on her date of discharge, she claims she's too mentally ill to handle it. It's so much for me to handle. Today I called the suicide prevention hotline. I'm trapped with no way out. Ive gained 60+ lbs due to the stress in just 3 short months. I feel totally drained and dead on the inside. Does anyone have a prayer or an idea or advice or has been through anything similar.
Hon, you need to have the strength to move now toward a job, a life of your own. You don't have to start big, but you have to start. Please get all the support you are able and move out, move on, now. You Mom then either can or doesn't have to take on the care of her mother in trade for that home. The home can be sold to support your grandmother's care going forward.
Please ask the hotlines when you call for numbers so that you can move into a supportive community that will help you move forward. Also know that if you go to your local ER and tell them that you are having suicidal ideation, thoughts of hurting yourself, they will hospitalize and treat you, and give you support moving forward. Do not return to the home situation.
I am so sorry for this, but staying in this situation is clearly endangering your very life.
Why I asked is that up to 40% of family caregivers die leaving behind the love one they were caring. Is this really worth keeping a house with those odds?
It also could be that your Aunts/Uncles believe that their Mother belongs in a facility as there comes a time when it does take a village. They aren't helping because they don't want to enable their Mother to continue to live in her house. I had enabled my parents [in their 90's] to remain in their home. If only I could turn back the clock and started differently. I had crashed and burned twice from all the stress :(
I honestly believe it is time for your Grandmother to sell her house, and use whatever equity there is for an assisted living facility, or possibly a nursing home.
Oh, when was the last time Grandmother was tested for an Urinary Tract Infection? Such an infection can mimic dementia, and cause all sorts of symptoms such as meanness, being hostile, etc.
May I ask why your grandma is not in a facility? It seems beyond what can be coped with by just one person, despite your obvious caregiving skills and great compassion and love for family. It is just too much!
I hope others will have some more thoughts and info for you. Hang on!
The call can trigger getting the help YOU need to begin to get healthy. I sense your frustration and it pains me when someone feels so alone to want to commit suicide. You are not alone. There is help out there & you’ve made the call & took the first step.
Call APS and report that your mother is a vulnerable adult because your mental health is at this time vulnerable. Don’t be ashamed to do this. You are seeking help and your priority should be YOU. Not to be calloused but mother has lived her life, it’s time for you to live yours. End the caregiving. Invest in yourself. If you don’t have a degree pursue classes at a community college. Get a job to begin establishing a career. You are young at 33 & have the power to make anything good happen for you going forward.
Its not a sign of weakness to call the Suicide Hotline. I hope they gave you sound advice that you will consider following. A local therapist would help. If you haven’t already have a PCP, find one you like and ask for a referral to a behavioral health specialist.
Hang in there!
If you have gained >60 pounds in just three months, that is a LOT of stress that you're under. You canNOT keep this up. The best thing for you is to remove yourself from the situation.
I know you did caregiving for your grandfather before this, but what was your job before that? Your dreams? Your goals? 33 is not too old to take back your life!
Who has POA/HCPOA for your grandmother?
Talk to us here, and tell us more. (I also suggest you see a therapist and/or your doctor for a complete checkup.)
Could you get yourself to Weight Watchers to help yourself and give some focus and structure not to mention possibly some bonding with others.
Your life has worth and value although it may be hard to feel that way with all you are coping with. This is all a huge burden that needs drastic changing. I hope you can use suggestions here and start the process of changing this very difficult situation.
Sounds like you were with your grandmother 24/7 while she spent 90 days in rehab? WHY?
Call the facility that she was in and ask for the social worker’s phone number or perhaps grandma’s primary doctor. That is how I got the contact number for social worker.
Tell the social worker what you are dealing with and that you have previously taken care of your grandpa. Also mention that your mom is mentally ill.
They can point you in the right direction for help.
Why did you sleep on a cot in rehab? My mom just got home from rehab and I never spent the night there.
Please don’t end your life. There is help. You deserve to live your life. You are too young for this.
I will pray for you. I am glad that you have faith. It will be a comfort to you. Talk to God as if he is your best friend. Forget formal prayers right now. Just speak to God from your heart.
Please stay in touch. We care.
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